What ifs...

What if life were just an illusion, and what I see and do aren't really there? What if the keyboard I'm typing on, the words that are appearing on the screen aren't there? What if what I'm doing isn't getting anywhere?

What if life were just a test, and everyone around me are pretending to be friends when I'm merely a test subject? What if everybody is in on something I'm not?

What if life were just a fake, and I'm not really here? What if I don't matter?

Well, what I'm doing isn't getting anywhere, because nothing lasts forever. Time will eventually erode all accomplishments, no matter how great.

Well, everyone is in on something I'm not, because I'm not them, and I will never be. It's impossible to know if someone is lying or not about something inside their head, because it's something only visible to them.

Well, I don't matter. I may be the world to me, but I'm nobody to the world.

What if, what if, what if...